You may want to turn your volume up a bit to hear the birds singing here
"A
Sandpiper To Bring You Joy"
She
was six years old when I first met her on the
beach near where I lived for the summer. I
drove to this beach, a distance of three or four
miles, whenever the world began to close in on
me. The ocean water, the waves, brought a peace
to my soul, that I could not find anywhere
else. This little girl was building a sand
castle or something and as she looked up at me,
her eyes were as blue as the sea.
Hello," she
said. I answered with a nod, not really in the
mood to bother with a small
child. "I'm building," she
said. "I see that. What is it?" I
asked, not caring. "Oh I don't
know, I just like the feel of the sand.
"That sounds good,
I thought, and slipped off my shoes.
A sandpiper
glided by. "That's a joy,"
the child said. "It's what?" I
asked, uncaring. "It's a joy! My
mama says sandpipers come to
bring us joy. "The bird went glissading down
the beach.
"Good-bye
joy," I muttered to myself, "Hello,
pain." and turned
to walk on. I was depressed; my life seemed
completely out of balance. "What's
your name?" She wouldn't give
up, so I told her my name.
Mine's Wendy, and
I'm six. Hi, Wendy. I offered. She giggled.
You're funny, she said..In spite of my gloom I
laughed too and walked on. Her musical giggle
followed me "Come again, Mrs D" she
called. "We'll have another happy day.
The days and weeks
that followed did not ease the pain that filled
my heart. . The sun was shining one morning
as I took my hands out of the dishwatsher I need
a sandpiper, I said to myself, how I love to
watch those little creatures as they go about
their lives so busy and brisk, with their tiny
feet seeming to go a hundred miles an hour. I
grab my jacket and header for the beach.
The never changing peace of the seashore awaited
me.
The breeze was chilly, but I strode along, trying
to recapture the serenity I needed. I had
forgotten the child and was startled when she
appeared. She chattered little girl
talk as we strolled up the beach, but my mind was
on other things. "When I left for
home," Wendy said, "it had been a happy
day." Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled
at her and agreed.
- Three
weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a
state of near panic. I was in no
mood to greet even Wendy. I thought
I saw her mother on the porch and felt
like demanding she keep her child at
home. "Look, if you don't
mind, "I'd rather be alone
today."." She seemed
unusually pale and out of breath.
"Why?" she asked I turned on
her and shouted, "Because my
daughter died!" and thought, my God,
why was I saying this to a little child?
Oh," she said
quietly, "then this is a bad
day." "Yes, and yesterday and the
day before that and oh, go away!" "Did
it hurt?, she said" "Did what
hurt?" I was exasperated with her, with
myself. "When she died?"
"Of course it hurt!"
I snapped, misunderstanding, wrapped up in
myself. I strode off..........
A
month or so after that, when I next went to the
beach, she wasn't there. Feeling guilty,
ashamed and admitting to myself I missed her, I
went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked
at the door. A drawn looking young
woman with honey colored hair opened the
door. "Hello," I
said. "My name is Carol and I missed
your little girl today and wondered where she
was." "Oh yes, please come
in. Wendy talked of you so much. I'm
afraid I allowed her to bother
you. If she was a nuisance, please accept
my apologies." "Not at all she's a
delightful child," I said, suddenly
realizing that I meant it. "Where is
she?" "Wendy died last week, Mrs.
D. She had leukemia, maybe she didn't
tell you
Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. My
breath caught. "She loved this beach;
so when she asked to come, we couldn't say
no." She seemed so much better
here and had a lot of what she called happy
days. But the last few weeks, she declined
rapidly...." Her voice faltered.
"She left something for you.. if only
I can find it. Could you wait a moment
while I look?"
I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something,
anything, to say to this lovely young
woman. She handed me a smeared envelope,
with MRS. D printed in bold, childish
letters. Inside was a picture and wording in
black crayon, a yellow beach, a blue sea, a brown
bird. Underneath was carefully printed:
A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY"
Tears
welled up in my eyes, and a heart that had almost
forgotten how to love opened wide. I took
Wendy's mother in my arms. "I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," I muttered over
and over, and we wept together
.
The precious little picture she gave me is
framed now and hangs in my den. Six words
on that pictures one for each year of her life
that speak to me of inner harmony,
courage, undemanding love. A gift from a
child with sea blue eyes and hair the color of
sand who taught me the
"Gift Of Love".
I
love you Wendy. Thank you ...

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